Ah, but you can't know that because you are young.  You also can't know much about wasted years because you're still so young.  You are being philosophical about talking about wasted years.  Words and language are the only way that human beings can communicate with each other to exchange ideas, thoughts and concepts.  Even deaf people have a language to use for communication.  There's no other way to do it.  Of course sparks of wisdom come from people of all ages -- I don't dispute that.

I find it kind of sad that you must depend upon Microsoft Word to correct your spelling and grammar.  Have you been to college at all?   What do you do for a living, if that's not too dear to ask?  Do you read any books other than those about spirituality and new age religions?  IMO, a whole, well-rounded person must read about many things, both fiction and non-fiction.  Otherwise, one tends to live a lop-sided life and the brain gets very lazy. 

"As I have said before, I have all kinds of personal disagreements with Maharaji's organization, it's history... But I have seen the benifits it's done on many people I've been surrounded by and myself... and thus I believe in it's general thrust. I feel that in my heart, my inner guide tells me to "stay" That's why I stick around... will I help out Maharaji for my entire lifetime? I don't know... perhaps yes, perhaps not...  But for sure I will help him out in spirit. Because by seeking inner peace, we are helping the entire world in it's energy... Internal conflict manifests as war, violence, greed, hatred, violence and so on."

What do you think about Maharaji's enormous wealth?  He acquired his wealth from us older folks, LD.  He never has worked a day in his life. That's a fact.  He likes premies to believe he works hard, but I know he doesn't do much except play with his very expensive toys, which again, older premies and ex-premies have paid for dearly. 

I spent a whole year working directly with Maharaji on the DECA project as one of his assistants.  I saw him every day.  Hundreds of premies worked for free to reconfigure a B707 jet for him because leasing corporate jets and using first class air transportation wasn't good enough for him.  That was when he was the "Lord" and didn't hide it, btw. 

If Maharaji had such a project today, would you be willing to work 20+ hour days, sometimes three and four days in a row with very little sleep or even a change of clothes?  We had absolutely no time for meditation; we were too exhausted for meditation.  How would you react if Maharaji presented that "opportunity" to you today?  How much dedication and devotion would you be willing to commit to Maharaji?  How would you react today to being in such a position, knowing he's "not the Lord or God," to working conditions where several toxic, poisonous chemicals were wafting through a building and he refused to spend money for the appropriate protective equipment because it would have taken too much out of the budget for his jet?  Would you be willing to give up your health at his personal request?  Many, many premies got very ill because of that project (some have died) and some suffered for many years without one peep or offer of financial assistance from Maharaji for their health care.  Some commited or attempted suicide because they were lead to believe that they weren't devoted or surrendered enough to serve Maharaji on that project. 

What do you think about how Maharaji handled the situation when he found out that one of his closest associates, Mahatma Jagdeo was molesting and raping the children of his premies?  There are a couple of women who I know of who were genitally raped at around age eight by a middle aged pedophile -- Jagdeo.  Others were molested and Maharaji did nothing but send him away where he was allowed to have continued contact with children.  What do you think about your Master's lack of appropriate action in that situation?

These are not rhetorical questions, LD.  I'm asking you straight out.  You are old enough and smart enough to make an examination of your choice of Master and judge the quality of his behavior, morals, and ethics.

Cynthia