Maybe it helps to think of it this way. You've been presented with a very plausible, serious allegation. The key question is do you have the right to know if it's true or not? Think about it. If you decide that no, you don't have a right to know, you should ask yourself if there's any kind of allegation about Maharaji that you would have a right to find out about. Say someone said Maharaji ordered the death of someone. (Relax, premies, I'm only speaking hypothetically. Something you poor fools are trained avoid like the palgue.) But, anyway, say that were the allegation. IMEHO, there are some allegations so serious you would have such a right to find out about. Otherwise, premies are no different than those cult members in Japan, trained to take no interest in anything the cult leader does including, in that case, murder.
Okay, so again, IMESHO, the abuse-related allegations are serious enough to earn any follower a right to know the truth of. This is completely contrary to the cult programming, of course. The cult trained us to watch as Maharaji and his supposedly 'Holy Family' sued each other in court for name and money and to consciously avoid asking a single question. And that's just one of many examples. As in all cults, the premies never had any right to know anything. Nothing.
But, anyway, say you've decided diferently and, in this one little case you're sure that you are indeed owed an explanation. The rest is simple. The rest is one easy stroll right out the door.
What you do at that point is start trying to find an answer. Not just any answer but a truly satisfactory one. And by that, I don't mean satsfying to the Hamster. I mean satisfying to you.
As soon as you approach Maharaji like a human being with just that one little right -- in this case, the right to an answer about this one little question -- you're on the way out. See, as you've probably already sensed, the cult has absolutely no mechanism to address, let alone satisfy, your rights. In this case, you start asking your question and see where it gets you. Maharaji will never answer it, that's almost positive beyond question. Yet he's the only one who could. Anyone else would just be speculating and, if you accepted their speculations, you would be compromising and that's the one thing you've agreed (with yourself, of course) you won't do, remember? You're left without an answer and either you give up your question (and your right!) or you keep pushing.
But if you keep pushing with any steam at all the cult will leave you befor you even have to decide if and when to finally split.
Did you see the letter Marolyn wrote her old friend who made the mistake of insisting on an answer from Maharaji? In her case, the premie acutally got an answer. Trouble was, it was inane and only triggered a follow-up. Maharaji wouldn't play and the girl got understandably pissed off. I guess, after all that time as a premie, somehow she just figured that, at least in terms of this one, itsy-bitsy, Tinky-Winky, question she'd asked Maharaji (something about karma and whether it made sense to say we all got what we asked for in the context of abused children. But it could have been anything.) -- at least here she had a right to an answer.
So she wouldn't let up. She tried to contact Maharaji back at the farm and then, when that failed, she tried to follow up with her old bud, Marolyn. Surely, Marolyn would respect her old friend and help her clear up this confusion, right? Well, that's what she thought at least. Anyway, what DID happen is Marolyn told her, basically, was that a good premie does nothing but surrender, leave the world to Maharaji and just try to find that 'love inside'. You know. The friend finally appreciated what had escaped her all those years. Her thoughts, her understanding, her morality, really meant nothing here. Nothing. Perhaps it was time to find some other place where she might actually be appreciated. It sure wasn't here.
Anyway, you can read that somewhere or other in the archives. The point, though, is that if you think you have any rights at all, if you think your opinion matters about anything here, and you're not willing to give on that point, the cult can't hold you. It just can't.