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humble beginnings

Posted by:	lesley
Date:	04/21/2023, 09:35:22
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Amazing to think you did sail across the Atlantic in a little yacht. and surreal that you found a man in a rowing boat in the middle of it.

Before the Rawat intervention in my life I had a plan, it too was whimsical in beginning in that it happened because I was given a book on Zen macrobiotics and decided I would do it. First it's just rice and water and the flame to cook it, then you add twig tea and gamasio - a mix of toasted sesame seeds and salt, then weeks and weeks later you started to add vegetables. I had a good sized vegetable plot growing and was getting close to the vegetables when the premie turned up.

It might not sound like much but I look back and think it was interesting and would have led somewhere.

Live satsang had finished some time before and then I remember hearing the weekly video event was cancelled, it was an odd moment. I was doing the washing up and looking out the window at the rainforest and I thought oh well there's the cassettes and I'm ashamed to say that is where I went. I started listening to them in the car as I drove.

Just recently you pointed out the lack of content in all the satsang - nothing memorable at all. Yet it became like a secret world where I would put on the tape and I guess therefore stop listening to myself.

Eventually the point came where I have found the forum and exit the cult and up comes the question what do I do now and the answer is immediate, pick up my clay. Again it is nothing spectacular, like the vegetables but it's interesting again, isn't it.

Re: humble beginnings

Posted by:	lesley
Date:	04/21/2023, 16:47:22
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it was just the phrase that jumped into my head but yes. I never had grand plans for my life, well I guess my guiding star was my mother.

I just had these little plans. I can't help but think the back to rice water and flame was like a reset, a chance to develop my talent as a cook from a blank slate. Not even salt at first. Done at a time I had no thought of cooking or growing vegetables, I just started doing it, instinctive I guess. Does it matter I never got to complete my experiment, well, I would have liked to know what I would have made of it, on the other hand I am still experimenting and making little plans around cooking and growing vegetables.

Definitely hoping for humble endings.

Love is all you need.

Re: humble endings

Posted by:	Aquinas
Date:	04/22/2023, 00:46:43
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Lesley, I too never had grand aspirations and just adored my mother, who was a creature of light and love and fairies in the garden.

I love the idea of the rice cooking and macrobiotics. I tried being macrobiotic when I was young, and loved it. I don't know why I stopped.

I like the idea of 'humble endings' for us too. One little thing at a time. Simple and sweet.

Re: humble endings

Posted by:	lesley
Date:	04/22/2023, 05:28:41
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Thanks Aquinas

I just looked up the word macrobiotics in my dictionary and it reminded me what it was about - balancing yin and yang. Yes, I did like that idea before becoming a premie, I had a pendant with the yin yang symbol on it.

I have no idea what that's about now. I think maybe it was just that there were the two things.

I seem to remember that my attitude was well I don't know I'll find out what balancing the fire and the water does but I was interested the most in the starting your diet from fresh, adding the vegetables one by one, and I don't think I was planning to stop there. I had this old pine kitchen table, all bleached, I still did that thing of scrubbing it with Ajax to clean it.

I was studying ceramics at uni and lived in a cottage in the woods, about a quarter acre vegetable plot, there were cats and people, some of my hippy friends had found me, but no chickens yet. I probably would have wanted a small cow given time.